MDAY

So with everything that has happened in my life up to this point I really thought mothers day would be no prob right?! haha not so much I was in DENIAL hahaha did good all day until I got home...then it all settled in. Sad pandas everywhere. Even with my beautiful amazing husband to come home to everyday it still hurt not being able to hold a sweet little baby in my arms as another year passed. I never really let my emotions out much on my blog much but it was a very sad day for me. More than anything I want to be a Mom and have a little one to care for and share that joy that every parent feels in raising a child with my hubby. I know Joey isn't really ready for kids yet...I think he is still getting used to marriage haha poor guy intense life changes all at once! I couldn't have imagined how different my life would have been if I would have had kids before this point anyway. I am in such a better place and happier situation to be able to raise a family. So grateful to the Lord for that and not giving up on me.

I do want to say though that I have one of the most amazing Moms out there. She means the world to me! She has done so much for me through the years and I can't imagine my life without her. Above is some pictures of my wedding dress she made cause she has mad skills of justice! She is such a hoot to always cracking me up with her little randomness dancing with lace haha! The pic above that was on my bday last year so crazy how fast life changes. I love my Mommy so much! and to the already moms out there..be grateful for your little ones and the little blessings they are in your lives. :)  For those of you still waiting like me..I hope your time will come soon and if not you can find happiness in the other parts of you life. I wanted to add this quote below because sometimes we get down on ourselves for feeling bad but don't...it's ok to cry if you are like me it helps you feel better.